1st, 2nd, 3rd.

I'm sick of being everybody's second choice. My whole life I have settled for being being 2nd or 3rd. 2nd daughter, 3rd best friend. and the only person that put me 1st, above himself, I let go. I try so hard to please those who don't put me first, I lost him. He was the first to ever be my friend, to look to me for advice... And when I need his hugs and kisses, I feel even worse knowing that he has someone else.


No other guy has ever looked at me first. I'm the friend, the secret, the one night stand because the girl you really want isn't ready.. Or even worse - the "we'll see.." line. I'm over it. I don't want to be someone's 2nd choice anymore. I want a guy that will take me out, tag me on Facebook and be fucking proud of it, not worried about what others will think. I'm not going to be the "inside joke" between you and your friends, because they think I'm oh so in love with you. News flash: I'm not.

Angry rant over, but it doesn't change the fact I'm never first -.- ... When will that change?!