Untitled thoughts for an untitled mind.

I look into the world and there are all these different people and characters and it is such a wonder. Where did they come from and where are they going? I could sit on a train and watch all the types of people come and go and be more confused at the end of the day than at the beginning. who are these people? What makes them tick? Do they have any deep, dark secrets?

I'm sitting on a train currently and hate it when I'm on the bogan and derro carriage.. Ewwwww! No drugged-up lady I don't want you touching me.. I am actually ignoring you! Ahh she's getting off.. Okay the only thing worse than a drugged up lady is a little lad. Fucking thinkin he's all that.. News flash! You. Are. Not.

Travelling to the tunes of linkin park and lost prophets. Seeing Fast and the Furious 5 in half an hour.. Ohhhhhhh yeah :)

mixed emotions.

What I once knew, I don't know anymore. The future is a ball of uncertainty, constantly changing with the seasons. I thought I knew what I wanted, where I was going, and now I think it's changing. I thought I loved him and now I'm not so sure. What do I do? Which decision is right? marriage and divorce is so flippant and common now. Is it so bad to want those traditional ideals of "forever"? 

I have this black cloud hanging in the distance and I don't know if I want it to stay there, in the distance and never come to pass, or if I yell and scream for the Universe to "bring it on"! What is right? What will secure my happiness? This move really took us one GIANT step back and I have no idea what to make of it. I don't know how to get back to what we were, and I don't know how to move forward. it's like we've jarred onto some alternate path that is stuck on re-run. Nothing changes, nothing gets better, but it doesn't get worse either.

Advice? I'm not really sure who to ask, because I want an honest unbiased opinion that doesn't have an ulterior motive behind it. So who do I ask? how do I know if what I am doing is unfair and too much, how do I know if what he is doing childish and immature?

I want positivity in my life, not pessimism and negativity. And right now thats all I seem to be getting.